The state of my heart
I'm a mess ...
My blog is where my thoughts have free reign. This blog is where I come when my head cannot process the emotions of my heart. I have unfortunately used this blog more than I probably should. The reason being is that I have a terrible fault, I never actually tell people how I am feeling. If I am hurt, offended, or upset I will keep all of the emotion to myself. It’s a terrible habit, and I do not recommend it. I am also a perfectionist and the thought of performing anything less than perfect makes me wanna puke. But that is what my life is, one big performance. I’m a fraud, a joke, and a hot mess that tricks people into thinking I have it all together when I don’t. I have depression, anxiety, and a panic disorder that I am a million miles away from being able to control. So everyone, enjoy the show! Lets hope I make it out alive.M.V.
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