I really just do not understand any of this. I feel completely at a loss. After all these years I am still struggling with this? I thought I would have made so better friends by now. I am just so sick of always being second pick. Of always being the last resort. Of always being ditched, cheated, and forgotten about. Of only being friends with someone when it’s convenient for them. I am tired of only being talked to when someone needs advice. I am tired of being the friend that everyone knows “Will always be there for them”. Well that’s all fine and dandy and would sure look good on a Facebook Happy Birthday post but where is that person for me? Cause I know that in the past few months whenever I have texted someone saying that I need someone to talk to or someone to pray with me not once has someone dropped what they were doing to come or to call. I even asked one of my friends if we could stay friends this semester and you know what their response was? “I’ll be honest I’m too busy”. You can’t be my friend cause you are too busy. Is that just not the coolest response ever!?!? These are the same people that I have skipped work for, ditched my boyfriend for, stayed up all night talking them through things or praying for them all night even when I have work at 5 am in the morning, work 3 jobs, full time student, and am leader of 3 different committees. I have made myself so emotionally and physically available for people who honestly don’t give a crap about me. And I would like to say that it is all their fault but after being in so many friend groups and being ditched by so many people…you get the picture. And I got it. Siting alone in my room on my birthday after being ditched by so many people made me realize that I don’t know who my friends are. I only know of people who step all over me and expect me to take their insults and criticism with a smile.
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“chuffed doesnt mean what you think it means”
it means exactly what i think it means its just some stupid word that literally has two definitions that mean the opposite thing
This makes me really chuffed.
This post is quite egregious
Well I’m nonplussed by this whole post.
I miss you like crazy and its only been a freaking week. Gosh I hate freaking long distance